Aurelias Accipitris
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 17, 2017 18:21:22 GMT -8
"We won't be able to move on until everything is dry." He notes as he spoons porridge into a bowl and begins to eat. "So we will have to stay here for the night, I'll gather more firewood after I eat so we can keep it high." He lapses into silence then as he consumes his bowl of porridge when it is finished he sets it aside and then just stares at her. His expression gives away almost nothing but in his eyes his thoughts are laid bare. He wants to say something, but he doesn't know what or how to say what needs to be said.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 17, 2017 20:21:54 GMT -8
She gave a nod at his words, figuring they would be there for a time. If she hadn't gotten the fire going, they would probably be stuck even longer. Her eyes met his after a moment, and she spent the next moment trying to decide what to do. She was tired of the tug and pull that caused such conflict, how the man in front of her was possibly the most infuriating man but somehow caring despite efforts to make it seem otherwise.
What would happen if she part ways with him? Her heart said she would hate herself, her mind told her it was best. In the end, she stopped thinking. Hayan stood and padded to him, kneeling beside him but back enough that her face was facing his. She was not smiling, her eyes gave away that she was as conflicted as he, but she was doing something about it.
It was a brush of soft lips at just the corner of his... Nothing more. It might have seemed like a chaste kiss to an onlooker, but it was pretty telling to the recipient as she pulled back and looked him in the eyes with a silent invitation. Without waiting for him to respond, for she knew he very well might not, she moved to the tent and disappeared inside.
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 18, 2017 10:14:13 GMT -8
Apparently, Hayan felt much the same way he did about this situation because instead of trying to talk through or out of this she decided to just act. Perhaps he should have seen this coming after all his talk of actions over words. The kiss lingers on his lips after she slips into the tent and he knows what it portends, what she is offering. Perhaps if he gave in and went inside it would end at just that, perhaps nothing more would come of it. He didn't know, he only knew that if he went in things would change. Getting to his feet he hesitates but decides that after everything that had transpired some change may be preferable. He enters the darkness of the tent to see what may come.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 18, 2017 14:27:50 GMT -8
She was surprised when he came into the tent. Hayan moved to kneel, the blanket dropped. He would be able to hear how her breathing deepened. She waited until he was in, waited until he was beside her to move to him. At first, she seemed shy, like this was her first time... But in the end, she kissed him hungrily and held fast to him. Her kisses spoke of what was beneath the surface, what had been forced to hide for a long time. Her fingers shook as she opened his shirt up, palms skimming the flesh of his chest. She didn't need to say a word as she led him down the path tgey both tried to avoid.
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Roleplay posts: 115
Age: 26
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 18, 2017 15:08:40 GMT -8
What they did in the tent that night was stupid, it was something they both should have put a stop to, it was something they both knew would more than likely end poorly. It was also something they'd both desperately needed. Pleasure, empathy, shared desire and shared heartache all expressed within those few blessed hours where they both forgot about their realities and just pretended they could enjoy themselves for a limited time. The dawn sees them tangled in a mess of limbs and blankets Aurelias snoring lightly as the sun slowly stirs him awake.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 18, 2017 15:38:47 GMT -8
She woke up slowly, her brain foggy, but for the love of the divine one, it was peaceful. Hayan stared off for a moment and then let her gaze drift to the shadows across his face. She had memorized every nuance, every angle of that face, knowing very soon that she would possibly never see it again. At least with what had happened throughout the night, she would never have to wonder what it would be like to choose the path they took. She sat up, drawing her knees up, saying softly, "You want some breakfast?" There was nothing awkward about it, it was the most relaxed he would probably see her. She gave him enough time to answer, then moved to leave the tent. She was unabashed, knowing he'd look. Once outside, she pulled on her tunic, finally dry, the air was warmer but still cold.
She pulled on he breeches, socks, and boots, then moved ti stokd the still glowing coals to get breakfast started.
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 18, 2017 18:37:41 GMT -8
Aurelias stirs as she leaves watching through half-lidded eyes. Part of him wants to reach out and grab her about the waist, pull her back in for a repeat performance and damn the consequences. The more sensible part knows it's best to go back to business as usual. He crawls out after her and quickly gets dressed. He soon join her by the fire settling in and wondering what they would do next, probably get to Swavia finally and then part ways.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 18, 2017 20:33:34 GMT -8
She pretty much felt the same; he would probably catch it in one of her stolen glances. After porridge was eaten and leftover rabbit, she cleaned up from breakfast... She checked things, packed what was dry and left the few things that still needed time. Through all that, she kept glancing his way, Then at some point, when everything was taken care of, and the day grew into a warm day where the snow was melting so the rest of the journey would go more smoothly; she pulled her own blanket from the tent to spread it on the ground. She lay on top of that, her blonde locks spread across the blanket like a halo, and she gave him the come hither look that said that it was okay to pretend for just a short time longer.
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Roleplay posts: 115
Age: 26
Registered: Nov 24, 2016 18:21:49 GMT -8
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 19, 2017 6:31:25 GMT -8
They should have got going but instead, they both seemed intent on lingering, on enjoying this fleeting time of pretend for as long as they could. When she pulls out the blanket he raises an eyebrow until she sees her lay it on the ground and give him that sultry, inviting look. His mind says he shouldn't give in but his body and his heart want to continue this charade, to pretend for a while longer that he actually had something good in his life. He goes to her and presses her down into the blanket falling into a blissful embrace under the sun.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 19, 2017 8:10:03 GMT -8
When the shroud of sensuality lifted again, she lay on her belly with hands under her chin, resting both upon his chest. Her eyes were half closed as she peered at him. Her smile was a slight curve as the sun warmed them, and she gave a deep sigh. "I never knew until last night and today how it was supposed to be..." That was all she said, no story was launched into, but he would hopefully understand what she meant and that she told him in unspoken words that even if this was for a short time, it had more of an impact than he probably understood. He had essentially helped to ease away the cold touch of a ghost, perhaps even helped push fears away after the cruelty of a man desperate for a son. She realized that even if they were to part ways, Aurelias had provided some healing balm, and perhaps so did she in return.
The rest of the day passed lazily away, between napping, eating, even some easy smiles from her during the moments they simply just lay there.
The next day brought the sombre feeling of returning to reality, breakfast was eaten, the tent packed, jogging, etc... They finally saw the village looming on the horizon as the valley gently eased into grassy knolls. She stopped walking to survey, then closed her eyes against the rather morose feeling that crept into her. Hayan took a deep breath to try and ease herself away from the feeling, looked at him and gave a sad smile. "I do not think I could forget you if I tried. You saved my life in more ways than you know." And she moved to him, lifted up on her toes, and gave him a parting kiss. Then she broke away, and started to walk toward the village, trying to will herself to refrain from looking back.
For the love of the divine one, she thought, let him step into my path... Let him grab me and tell me not to go... Which caused her to stop in her tracks and stand there, warring with herself.
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Age: 26
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 19, 2017 16:39:09 GMT -8
When they lay in that comfortable tangle of limbs, her arms resting on his chest his hand absently twining in her golden hair Aurelias again felt that utter serenity of absence. It was the absence of thought about his brother's death, his lack of purpose, his lack of duty and it was true bliss. Her words take him by surprise, that she felt that what was shared between them wasn't just good but what it was supposed to be like surprised him. He couldn't deny that their bodies had a certain compatibility, their spirits a certain symbiosis that made it all the more pleasurable.
When they come to the fork, one way leading further along the other to the village she stops. Looking at her in surprise he listens to her sweet farewell before she gives him a last kiss and walking towards the village. When she stops he is not far behind her and he strides up next to her looking at her curiously. "I know you are eager to get rid of me." He says the faintest hint of amusement in his tone. "But I need to go to the village as well and resupply." It appears their paths were not not going to separate just yet.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 19, 2017 18:14:55 GMT -8
"Eager is not the word I would use." She turned to look at him, then she took a breath. He wasn't leaving her just yet. "Eager would be the word to cover up the feeling our parting really causes because I am trying to pretend you mean nothing to me..." She flinched at the words, and had to look away. "Because nobody has ever pushed me the way you have, nor shown me how to fend for myself or how to keep fighting... Because no matter how foolish I looked, you were there showing me how to do it... You are the most infuriating person sometimes, but underneath is just someone who hurts a whole damn lot and is too proud to say why, and divines damn it... No... No... Just... I understand you and know I probably might never see you again. And I have to accept that."
She took another deep breath and started to walk again unless he stopped her.
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Roleplay posts: 115
Age: 26
Registered: Nov 24, 2016 18:21:49 GMT -8
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 20, 2017 5:32:03 GMT -8
Aurelias doesn't stop her from walking he just matches her stride walking in silence for several long moments. He isn't quite sure what he should say to her confession knowing that it speaks of the exact things he was afraid of. It takes him several long moments to decide what to do and as he'd so often done with her he goes against what his head said. "My brother was killed, there was nothing I could have done to prevent that. There was a mass poisoning at the emperor's inauguration, if the imperial guard couldn't prevent it I couldn't have. The only person I cared for died a man I swore to protect, that oath gave me purpose. My only purpose."
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2017 7:19:35 GMT -8
"I understand," she said softly. Things started to make sense. They were alike in so many ways... They both felt purposeless, things happened beyond their control and things spiraled into darkness. Hayan pondered for a moment, then said, "And you blame yourself on some level." It was very telling, she picked up on the part where he said he was supposed to protect his brother. She stopped walking and turned to regard him with her soft gaze, head tipped back some to be able to meet his own gaze. "And me being around just..." She didn't have to finish that thought, did she?
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Roleplay posts: 115
Age: 26
Registered: Nov 24, 2016 18:21:49 GMT -8
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 20, 2017 16:13:03 GMT -8
Aurelias walks in silence as she works out what he just told her, he didn't know why he kept going against what his mind told him to do. Probably because deep down he didn't want to keep living if he had nothing to live for, he was probably clinging to her because she was there and she needed help. He needed to fill that void left by his brother that need to serve, protect, and live for someone other than himself. "Yeah." He says, slowing down but not stopping.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2017 18:12:48 GMT -8
She looked down at her feet, silent as she started to match his pace when walking again. "Do you want me to stay behind after we get to town? Tell me what it is you want. I cannot take away the memory of what happened to your brother, but say the word and I will stay by your side and comfort you the only way I know how. If you tell me to stay here, I will stay." Her breath hitched at the last part and she turned away, trying to keep her composure.
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Roleplay posts: 115
Age: 26
Registered: Nov 24, 2016 18:21:49 GMT -8
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 20, 2017 18:19:47 GMT -8
The offer takes him off guard and he pauses in his tracks for a moment before continuing to walk. "I don't know what I want but it isn't for you to do... Whatever it is you are offering to do." He lets out a low sigh and runs his hand through his hair in frustration. "I helped you because... I needed to help someone. That doesn't, shouldn't, make you beholden to me. I will not ask for you to stay behind, I will not ask for you to come with me. You are your own person with your own problems, you can make your own damn choices." He sounds a bit annoyed that she is trying to thrust this onto him. "You have a daughter you need to save, a new life to build. How will you either if you are following me around?"
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2017 18:29:10 GMT -8
She pivoted on her foot and stepped in front of him, giving him the omg are you dense look, and planted her hands on her hips. "This has nothing to do with feeling beholden to you, you jackass. I love you. I was trying not to tell you that because I don't want for you to feel obligated by me. Gah. You are so maddening!" She started to do that thing where she was ranting to herself and pacing.
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Aurelias Accipitris
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Roleplay posts: 115
Age: 26
Registered: Nov 24, 2016 18:21:49 GMT -8
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Post by Aurelias Accipitris on Mar 20, 2017 18:39:21 GMT -8
When she stepped in front of him Aurelias is forced to stop and the look she gives him reminded him of the kind his brother used to, the looks that said. 'No Aurelias, we can't just cut the annoying fat Baron's head off.' What she says next, though, that get's his jaw to fall open mostly because he didn't think anyone had said it to him... ever. She loved him? That was, that was not something he had any capacity to deal with and he finds his mouth working before he has a chance to think. "I'm sorry what? You've met me, right? I'm Aurelias Accipitris a despicable, sarcastic, indolent, bastard. Anyone in the empire could tell you that." He'd spent years cultivating that reputation so that people would underestimate him, he'd never thought he'd find love or even friendship as a bastard, so he hadn't cared how it made me come off to other people.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2017 19:03:17 GMT -8
She sighed with exasperation and then steps up to him, looking up at him with the most serious look on her face, "I love you because you're as fierce as a dragon... I love you because despite that, you still find it in you to pull a dolt like me up from icy water. I love you because instead of calling me a fool for trying to teach myself how to use that blasted staff you made me, you remained patient and didn't cuff me in the ear for being stupid... And because when I cried, you didn't tell me to shut up. And because I love you, I am willing to let you go no matter how much watching you walk away will hurt! So tell me, Aurelias the despicable, sarcastic, indolent, bastard.... Do you really think that I, Hayan Drummond, the wreckless, outspoken, disobedient and afraid, would have you any other way?!"
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